happy earth day

i don't have any particular plans.
i try to behave like you have to respect the earth every day.

but i might wear green.

and here is something very cute to look at:

never say never

so i am getting over being sick. i used to say that i never get sick, but apparently i am a liar because i got sick. and it was terrible! i spent the first two days denying that i was sick, one day spent completely bedridden and today i am feeling a bit better but have to take it easy because in a few days i will be on a plane to DC!

but yesterday when i was at work, hyped up on caffeine, kevin AND christy visited me! it was very exciting. I love getting visitors at work. It's like a breath of fresh air. Just the pick-me-up I needed.

Today I am trying really hard to not exert myself. I have more energy, so I want to do things like clean and go to yoga and it's really hard to relax.

fuck yeah

i just heard from UIC and it looks like i will be going there!!

full tuition scholarship.
living stipend.

i can't even believe it.

no encouragement needed

today is the first really nice day of spring. I thought yesterday was nice, and today it is really nice. I woke up and had a hearty breakfast and then went on a half-hour bike ride. My mom and I are going to play tennis soon. Later Kathy and I are going to do yoga and walk around outside and have a fabulous dinner. This makes me so happy.

I remember when I used to hate moving in general, but now it brings me so much happiness. I also remember never having the energy to be active (and usually forcing myself to be active anyway). Now I can just go for a bike ride because I can and I want to. No prompting by anything except my desire. it's so nice.

yesterday the fam came over and we had brunch and took a walk through the nature center. I don't know why I haven't been back there since I've been home (perhaps the weather, but I honestly forgot it was here). Afterwards I went over to Rob's and got to meet his cats and sit in front of his fire pit...

lately i've been doing things like this and it's been such a nice reprieve from boredom and disconnectedness. It's not to say that I'm happy all of the time. I'm not. But I'm getting used to the idea that I can be happy and I can be sad at the same time. It's not "i'm in a good mood or i'm in a bad mood" it can (and is) both. which i think is normal. and if it's not, please don't tell me. thanks.